My Dumm Dumm Diary

wedding timeline

2008-05-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

6 months to 1 year ahead

finalise the wedding date and have standby date ready - 1 june 2008, sunday
decide on style of wedding - customary in the day, solemisation in the evening, banquet at night
set the budget - no budget, spend all our $ =p
~~select a suitable venue for the wedding~~
~~shop for designs for wedding dress and accessories~~
begin a diet and exercise regime - sure, trying very hard =p
plan the honeymoon - mw has settled this.. i'm so glad.. =)

4 to 6 months ahead

confirm wedding venue and arrange for a site visit - my house, his house, our home, banquet @ marina mandarin vanda ballroom
book a licensed solemniser - found
make wedding gown - needs dry-cleaning & ironing
make evening gown - needs dry cleaning & ironing
make tea dress - decide which to wear already
buy accessories - hair, ears, neck, wrist, all have!
prepare bethrothal gifts and dowry - =)
purchase wedding bands and have them engraved - ready in january 2008
select the hairstylist & make-up artist - cecilia ^_^
select flower girls, bridesmaids & best men
select emcees for the banquet
discuss preparation duties
~~decide on custom-made wedding stationery~~
plan the desired entertainment request quotes and music selection - dear settle
set up wedding registry and disseminate the news among friends and family - ROM settled & invitation cards sent
~~invite friends and family members to speak or perform at the wedding~~
pick wedding favours - done
prepare photo album for guests
pick wedding gifts for each other
pick gifts for parents
~~sign up for dance lessons~~

2 to 4 months ahead

select and confirm menu and wedding cake to be served on the wedding - ok
confirm the preferred wine selection - done =)
finalise the guest list
select photography ~~and videography~~ packages - ken ^_^
confirm all vendors and engage them in the wedding preparation
reserve guestrooms for guests from overseas - none
finalise the sequence of events for both the ceremony and reception
finalise the wedding decoration with florist and wedding planners
keep up your diet and exercise regime - haha
print the wedding invitation cards - printed =)
mail the wedding invitations - sent

1 to 2 months ahead

file the notice of marriage (file after 1 march & before 10 may) - done
confirm the wedding car rental, as well as the transportation for the guests
~~test out make-up and hairstyle with stylist~~
go for dress/suit fittings to ensure a perfect fit - yes, they fit! =)
confirm attendance with overseas guests and arrange accommodation - none
select thank you gifts for helpers and attendants
check rsvps and finalise seating arrangements
final fittings for wedding dress, ensure gowns and suits are ready on time
schedule the wedding rehearsal and notify relevant parties
finalise all wedding preparations against checklist
practise walking in wedding shoes
prepare wedding car decorations

1 to 2 weeks ahead

rehearse the wedding ceremony
collect gowns, dresses and suits
work and confirm on the seating plan
write the speeches and practice them
prepare hand bouquet

1 day ahead

get a manicure and pedicure
squeeze in a relaxing massage
prepare the final payments and hand them to persons assigned to issue them to relevant vendors
hand over everything else to someone else who would get it done right

essential items on the actual day

birth certificates
i/c
payment for solemisation service (~$50)

luv,
xin

i miss you more and more..

2008-03-17T23:20:00.001+08:00

remembering the good old days.. where stress is not a word in our dictionary.. where smilez are always on our faces.. where work is never one of our concerns.. now everyday is all about LP and slides.. life is kinda miserable.. i feel so fake in the environment that i am in.. i feel so afraid of the politics that is surrounding me.. i feel so lonely that i do not want to talk to anyone after a horrible class.. i really miss u.. i think only u can understand.. and i thank waimun for listening to me whine and gossip and complain about everything and anything tonight even though u don't feel very well.. girls, we must meet up more often.. really.. i hope sandy join me.. i not sure if u would like it.. cos i dunno whether i really like it.. but it would be nice if u are with me..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm
and really dumm

...

2008-03-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

this is a ... post..

...

it's less than 3 months to my wedding.. busy, yes, i am..
it's second week into practicum.. stressed, yes, i am..

i think there are really a lot of things that i have not done.. maybe i should really do them soon.. i'm not worried, i'm just anxious, i think.. i dunno.. an incident today juz make me realise once again how friends are so important but important friends are not around..

i don't think i'm a loner..
and i think i have enough friends..
i think they all care for me..
but i dunno why, sometimes,
they are just not there for me..

maybe i think too much,
maybe i'm too sensitive..
maybe i want too much,
maybe i don't dare to ask..
maybe i should just be positive..

yes, that's it.. i should just be positive.. i don't know what got into me tonight.. i think i have PMS..

...

i wish i'm seeing wendy, sandy, melissa, shiqian in school everyday.. i wish i have better colleagues in school.. i'm not saying that the teachers are not nice.. they are nice.. but somehow, it's just so obvious that they are not the ones i want to spend my days with.. do u know how much time one can spend at the workplace.. it's SUPER long time.. let's see how a 24h day will work out in my possible life..

5 hours of sleep: (12.30am to 5.30am)
1 hour of wash-up: (5.30am to 6.30am)
1/2 hour of travel: (6.30am to 7.00am)
10 hours of work: (7.00am to 5.00pm) [assume i actually leave sch @ 5]
1/2 hour of travel: (5.00pm to 5.30pm)
3 hours of personal time: (5.30pm to 8.30pm)
4 hours of mw time: (8.30pm to 12.30am) [assume mw actually comes home @ 8.30]

see where the bulk of my time goes? can i have one of u at my workplace? or someone like u? boo..

...

actually, i'm not tat gloomy, really.. mw & i went to buy lightings for the house today.. paid deposit for $755 worth of lamps and thats not all.. still got kitchen lights, two bedroom lights and one small light to buy.. but i'm happy with my retail therapy today.. a different kind of retail experience, but sure, it was good therapy.. yup..

...

this is a ... post cos it's pretty random..

...

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

invitation

2008-02-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

dear friends..

anyone wants to volunteer to be my emcees? gotta go thru an audition wor.. haha.. and anyone wants to speak at my wedding? perform at my wedding? play games? haha.. let me know.. =D

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

有惊无险

2008-02-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

went for food tasting at marina mandarin tonight.. it was kinda 有惊无险.. mw & i were actually seated on hot seats among our parents.. i don't know abt him, but for me, it was kinda stressful.. phew, it's over..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

mahjong

2008-02-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

thank you sandy for the wonderful mahjong session today.. i wish i could stay a bit longer.. really enjoyed the company of all of u.. hee.. 4 girls mahjong.. hee.. with gossips and girls' talk.. hee.. nice! ^_^

joke of the day: ask shiqian what is the one difference between mw and me.. wahaha.. =D

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

^_^ 你是我的古天乐

2008-02-07T03:40:00.000+08:00

要疼爱我，宠坏我，不骗我；
答应我的事要做到。
不可以打我，欺负我，不理我；
要觉得我是最美的。
我开心的时候陪我一起开心，
我不开心的时候要哄我开心。
心里只有我一个，
做梦也要想着我。

慧鑫^_^

stress

2008-02-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

when there are a lot of things to do,
and you are not doing anything about it,
you are probably at stress level 10,
but think that you are at stress level 5.

i have a lot of things to do - wedding stuffs, house stuffs, nie stuffs, possible practicum stuffs, friends stuffs, blah blah blah..
yet i'm only doing the most unimportant things,
why?
because i think i have plenty of time,
and that i am only at stress level 2.

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

new house

2008-01-24T23:38:00.001+08:00

hee.. finally got the keys to the new house.. the view is splendid cos it's on the 11th floor.. can see a lot of greens, blues and whites.. hee.. i like.. wish my bedroom also has a full-length window.. boo.. oh well.. at this point in time, the house is full of dust.. boo.. i dun like.. hopefully the contractor can quickly do something to the floor then we can start painting.. mention of painting, GR has volunteer to have a "Paint MW&HX Home" project.. haha.. mw and i are appreciative but i guess i find it a bit paiseh to ask and it will take up a lot of time and energy.. besides, it can be quite 浪漫 for mw and i to paint it on our own.. haha.. been pondering about the house all the time since i got the house.. ya, i guess i'm pretty excited.. hee.. ^_^

luv,
xin

幸福的笑容

2008-01-24T01:41:00.000+08:00

新娘子漂不漂亮不在于她的衣服，而是在于她脸上幸福的笑容。
~黄金路~

to err is human, to forgive divine

2008-01-03T02:25:00.000+08:00

爱

爱是关怀，也需包容。
爱是体贴，也要体谅。
爱很简单，也很复杂。

爱一个人是特权，被爱是幸福。
但爱屋及乌却不理所当然。

不是每个人都愿意去爱，
有些人并不享受被爱，
很多人不懂什么是爱。

嘴上的爱是甜言蜜语，
脑里的爱是深思远虑，
心中的爱是刻骨铭心。

恋爱要刻骨铭心，
看人要深思远虑，
不要信甜言蜜语。

洋人有句俗语是：
to err is human, to forgive divine

我呢，原谅不是因为大方，而是因为时间冲淡了悲伤。
你呢，不要心软，不是每个伤害你的人都可被原谅的。
就算是原谅了，也要变聪明点，不要再被伤害。
傻傻的你要学会保护自己。

慧鑫

happy new year 2008!

2008-01-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

merry christmas to everyone!

2007-12-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

幸福

2007-12-21T10:12:00.000+08:00

学着放开，才会原谅；
懂得原谅，才会珍惜；
样样珍惜，才会开心；
天天开心，才会幸福。

慧鑫

for the house

2007-12-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

things to be done:

flooring
painting
aircon installation
kitchen cabinet
kitchen tabletop
kitchen sink area
water heaters installation
bedroom wardrobe

things to buy:

sink - deposit paid
aircon - deposit paid
cooker hod- verbal confirmation with dealer
cooker hood- verbal confirmation with dealer
oven - deposit paid
refrigerator
washing machine
shower doors
kitchen door
bathroom mirrors
living room mirror
lights
bed + mattress - deposit paid
tv
tv console
sofa
dining table + chairs
curtain rods
curtains
shoe cabinet

... to be continued

p.s. dear friends, pls get into groups and contribute (in cash) to the following funds.. ^_^
disclaimer: just kidding if u are offended.. not kidding if u are helpful enough.. haha.. =p

aircon fund
cooker hob + cooker hood fund
oven fund
refrigerator fund
washing machine fund
tv fund
sofa fund
dining table + chairs fund
bed fund

... to be continued as well

the roosters meet again

2007-12-16T00:36:00.000+08:00

seriously, only jk & zh are born in the year of the rooster.. what an unaptly name that we had given ourselves and used for so long! haha.. oh well..

anyway, today's attendance was good (as usual) - 14 of us.. hee.. ^_^ it is endearing that we make an effort for every gathering.. hee.. well, today we played pictionary and had lots of fun and laughters.. haha.. why din anyone take photos as we were playing? a lot of the drawings looked ridiculously funny! hee.. let's play it again next time! thank u ck for bringing it along..

dinner was nothing special - pizza & kfc.. but food was secondary to the joy of having a meal together! and after dinner, all of us became very nuan.. i guess that's what happened when young people like us start to become not so young.. haha.. and then we played a really silly game to get rid of food - i_ _ _ _n poker.. seriously, i dunno where this name came from? the game originate in i_ _ _ _ .. wahahaha.. it tells a lot of the nature of the game.. ops! *cover mouth* and we had a really interesting "cocktail mix" that none of us was very interested in drinking - bailys + pepsi.. for those who are curious, go and try (mixing & drinking), but don't let your curiosity takes u too far wor.. hee.. =p

now, i'm still bloated with chips & gassy drinks, pizza & chicken.. but i have had a really enjoyable time.. looking forward to the next rooster gathering next year! =)

p.s. will post photos if i receive the photos from xy/jk.. =)

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

看灯

2007-12-14T22:44:00.000+08:00

今天，和 mw 去看灯。不是去乌节路看圣诞灯哦，而是去看新家需要的灯。看到我们眼花缭乱！ *_*

mw & i have been browsing and shopping for many things for the wedding and the house.. so far so good, many of the things that we need before 1 june have been kinda settled - master bedroom bed, aircon, sink, oven, cooker hob, cooker hood, wedding bands.. now awaiting for the house to come.. and then got to do the flooring, paint the walls, buy the lights, doors, kitchen & bathroom accessories, renovate the kitchen & master bedroom.. and of cos, collect my wedding gown, evening gown, tea dress, his suits, decide on a car deco, bridal bouquet, corsages, blah blah blah.. i think the wedding is a lot of hassle but shall be special! haha.. got a lot of things to do.. dunno to be frustrated or excited.. grrr.. but i think ok la, the stress level at the moment is still pretty manageable.. if we collect the house keys in january (yes, it is now postponed!), i should have some time to mentally prepare myself before practicum.. kinda scared that i will mess up my practicum.. grrr.. can't wait to get volunteers *hint* *hint* to be my wedding planners.. haha.. but everyone is busy and i'm a fussy bride wor! haha.. oh well..

i shall remain calm and happy..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

fatso's real friend in the sea

2007-12-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

fatso's real friend @ St John's Island
*courtesy of nus marine bio lab*

p.s. fatso is a soft toy dolphin ^_^

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

快乐

2007-12-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

快乐

快乐
是在人群里认识特别的你。

快乐
是我不知不觉地喜欢上你。

快乐
是你第一次拉起我的小手。

快乐
是生病无奈时有你陪伴我。

快乐
是你拉着我的手环游世界。

快乐
是和你一起创造我们的家。

快乐
是你陪着我度过下半辈子。

快乐
是我深深地爱着你需要你。

慧鑫

cleon - my daemon

2007-12-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

enchanted

2007-12-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

watched "Enchanted" with mw today.. hee.. really like this song sang by Amy Adams - "That's How You Know".. hee.. ^_^

now, enjoy..

烦烦烦！

2007-12-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

i must settle my wedding gown by the end of this month.. it's very frustrating!! and worrying..

yesterday went out with him to look at wedding bands.. din buy but realise how easy it is to like and want to buy wedding bands.. so much easier and dun need to think too much.. juz need to like the design, ok with the price then can buy le.. grrrrr.. how come the wedding gown so difficult to buy?!? grrrrr..

look @ the list above.. so many things not done!!! grrrrr..

烦烦烦！

慧鑫

lust caution

2007-11-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

Synopsis
*contain spoiler if u haven't watched it yet!*

伤害你的永远都是你最亲爱的

2007-11-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

姨叫我体谅她。。好啊，我体谅她咯。。

慧鑫

previously on 15 November, i wrote:
最近去爷爷家都有点不开心。。 =(

她总是喜欢用些讽刺的话来伤害人。。对她来说，她永远是对的，别人总是错的。。有时和她说话会让我很生气。。其实她的这样那样已经好多年了，只是以前被她骂的人都是她的女儿，所以我没感觉到刺。。现在她对我的蛮不讲理，无理取闹，吹毛求疵，让我很心痛，很难过。。但她还是这样。。

人很奇怪。。总是喜欢伤害自己身边最亲的人。。其实我好爱她。。爱她比爱我妈妈还多。。但她不知道，不了解，不体谅。。喜欢用我对她的爱来伤我的心。。有时我真的觉得她好坏，好坏。。因为她弄我心好痛，好痛。。

慧鑫

encouragement, persuasion, persecution

2007-11-16T00:48:00.001+08:00

its' very frustrating when people don't do what u wish they would do.. whether it is obeying instructions or heeding advice, you just want people to listen to u.. this reminds me of a little something from my friend (& ex-bio teacher?):

some people need encouragement,
others need persuasion,
but when all fail, they need persecution.

nice huh?

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

4 freedom-deprived girls

2007-11-14T00:50:00.000+08:00

what happens when 4 freedom-deprived girls become released from NILE?

they eat (mainly sushi & japanese food)
they talk non-stop about travelling (to bangkok)
they go crazy about the thought of meeting boys (@ my wedding)
they discuss about how to steal from neighbouring cubicle (in public toilets)
they argue who is the most "auntie" among them (w_ _dy & m_ _ _ _sa are @ the top of the list=)

when 4 freedom-deprived girls come together, they have a whole lot of FUN! =)

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

i feel like a princess

2007-11-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

the wedding date has been fixed but i haven't got the chance to tell many of my friends about it yet.. i have so many so many friends and so many of them are so important to me.. but i hardly meet up with them, either i did not have the time, or they are not free to meet me.. it's ironic how my colleagues, whom i know for less than half a year, know more about what has happened to me during the past six months than my dearest friends, whom some i have known for more than 6 years.. it always takes 2 hands to clap.. it must be all my fault.. =(

anyway, i think the more important a person is to you, the more this person will hurt you with his/her apathy over the most important issue of your life.. sometimes, i think i am very sensitive.. and i do not confront friends with issues like this.. i guess it's not nice.. maybe i am not a worthy enough friend to deserve care and concern.. who knows, the problem may lies with me..

to one of my dearest friends: thank you for telling me that it's ok, that i do not have to worry so much, that u will be happy for me.. u mean a lot to me and i'm glad that u didn't say any negative comments about my decision.. it's amazing how your comments still mean so much to me like in those jc days.. and i just want to thank you for making me feel good about myself and my decision.. ya..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

p.s. to my dear dear: thank you for making me feel like a princess by doing all the errands for me.. i believe for the next six months or so, we will be very busy very stressed but probably very happy too.. so pls pardon my erratic mood swings and unreasonable temper at times k? i love u dear.. 和你在一起快要四年了。。。这段日子里有不少欢喜，也不少风雨。。。但你都尽量让我当你最可爱的公主，你最疼爱的宝贝，你最亲爱的 dear dear。。。我感觉好幸福哦。。。如果让我重新选择，我还是会要和你在一起。。。你在我心里的地位是不会因为时间或地点而改变的。。。 dear dear 我好爱你，也会爱你一辈子。。。

慧鑫

1/4 of everything

2007-11-09T01:45:00.001+08:00

i am quarter happy, quarter excited, quarter nervous and quarter worried.. i am very dumm.. thank you for telling me that it's ok, that i do not have to worry so much, that u will be happy for me.. u mean a lot to me and i'm glad that u didn't say any negative comments about my decision.. it's amazing how your comments still mean so much to me like in those jc days.. and i just want to thank you for making me feel good about myself and my decision.. ya.. hmmm.. juz another two cents worth.. boo..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

a thorn among the roses - minds cafe

2007-11-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

dicary dicary dog
prince wannabe
quaker oat mai pian
intelligent honoured owl
cheesy squeak squeak ratatouille

which is the hardest to pronoun?

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

结婚

2007-10-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

we are preparing for our big day le.. to many pple, it may seem too early, too rush, why the hurry? to us, we juz want to be together, happily married..

the decision was quick, but not sudden.. it was unplanned, but not unprepared.. i think we have enough time to get ready.. $ is an issue but certainly not the point.. he's giving almost everything that i would ask for.. he's trying his best to give me a dream wedding.. he's hoping that i would not ask too much.. hee..

two weeks ago, he gave me a dream bed.. on sunday, we decided on an expensive hotel banquet.. today, we want to have a meaningful wedding album.. what else will come next? wedding gowns? hee.. waimun & wendy have kindly offered to go around looking for gowns with me.. glad to have my girlfriends who are just as excited as i am..

i am a happy girl.. always a happy girl..

luv,
慧鑫

busily happy & stressed

2007-10-23T00:46:00.001+08:00

been very busy with projects last few weeks.. and the next few weeks are packed with individual assignments.. *sigh* in addition to all, been spending a lot of time looking at expensive things.. mw bought another expensive thing for me on sunday.. cost him $2250, of which he paid $1000 deposit le.. din expect ourselves to be spending money like water right after we started working.. i can foresee more $$$ beingforked out in the next few weeks.. =(

juz a dumm entry.. not worth the read..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

原来

2007-10-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

原来一切是那么好玩，开心，浪漫的。。。

慧鑫

love

2007-10-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

Love means letting the one you love enjoy the greatest happiness.

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

甜蜜的季节

2007-10-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

two weeks ago, i was at ye ye house.. saw the "today" newspapers so tried to play sudoku.. min min was there and saw me playing the sudoku.. although she did not know how to play, she was curious and stayed there watching me write the numbers..

one week later, i was at ye ye house again.. saw a pile of "today" newspapers and each one was turned to the sudoku page..
"敏敏, 你弄的啊?"
"uh hmm.. 你不是要玩 lohz?"
so i took one paper and say some of the sudoku only have one star, not challenging.. i did one sudoku and left the rest with the pile of papers..

today, i was at ye ye house again..
"eh, 报纸不见了啊?"
"没有啊.. 全部在这里.."
and min min took out a neat pile of papers, arranged in bundles..
"there, 这个是一个 star 的, 两个 star 的, 三个 star 的......"
aiyo, i saw already, my heart just melted.. she actually arranged the sudoku according to the different number of stars.. so sweet..

敏敏很可爱, 真的很可爱..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

why

2007-10-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

why do people laugh when a baby is born?
why do people cry when someone dies?
why are birth and death natural phenomena yet
only birth are embraced and death are dreaded?

must everyone die in the end?
when will this end be?
what if this end is near?
how do the sick cope?
how do the living survive?

i don't know.
i'm scared.
i don't want.
i'm sad.

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

p.s. today wendy bought me meiji black choc wafer.. delicious! and very sweet of her..

i am

2007-09-29T00:20:00.001+08:00

i am a worrier,
although i believe that things will somewhat fall in place naturally..

i am a crybaby,
i think i inherited this behavioural trait from my grandma..

i am a lucky girl,
because i am still falling in love with you, every day..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

i love my 爷爷

2007-09-14T00:22:00.001+08:00

爷爷疼我，爱我，宠我，
被宠坏的我是个野蛮的女孩。
可是爷爷还是疼我，爱我，宠我，
不管我有多野蛮，多坏蛋，多蛮不讲理。

爱我不难也不易，
需要很多的包容，关怀与爱惜。
当你像爷爷那样的珍惜我时，
我将会是这世界上最幸福的女孩。

谢谢爷爷的爱，
谢谢你的爱。
我好爱爷爷，
我也好爱你。

慧鑫

Romancing NILE

2007-09-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

hee.. realized that many people around me are breaking up and getting together in NILE.. not sure if it's a good sign or a bad one but i guess NILE is certainly an ideal place to find a partner..

people always look for life partner in uni.. sometimes, we found it, sometimes, we don't.. but NILE is a good place to do so because it is probably easier to find someone who shares the same passion in teaching and learning as u.. and come on, people in NILE 不可能坏到哪里去 since they are all teachers-to-be..

hopefully everyone can find their right one somehow.. it's blissfully sweet to be in a romancing world.. hee.. =)

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

thank u, u are my everything

2007-09-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

i had a very bad experience and a very expensive lesson today..

it always hurt when i lose something.. i always feel the pinch.. and today, i juz lost some $ because of my dummness & carelessness.. but i guess i don't feel so sad anymore.. i was stunned and upset when i realized it.. and to u, i cried.. but u didn't scold me.. instead u made me feel better.. and now, i remember a story..

"Dear, i need to rush off to work, can u put back my medicine back into the cabinet?" said a husband to his wife. Picking up his briefcase and he was out of the house. The wife who was busy washing the dishes decided to put the medicine away later. However, she forgot about it after the dishes was done.

Hours later, her three-year-old boy went into the kitchen and saw the bottle of coloured pills. Thinking that it was candies, he opened the bottle and swallowed one pill after another. Within five minutes, half the bottle of pills was gone.

By the time the mother found her child, the boy was already very sick. At the hospital, the doctor pronounced the boy dead. The mother was crying bitterly when the father arrived. Her carelessness had caused the death of her child. She was overwhelmed with sorrow and guilt and did know how to face her husband. Anyone would be able to imagine how angry the father would be. But her husband hugged her and said, "It's okay, my dear."

i have rewritten the story but the storyline is there.. and i have cried the first time when i read the story.. but i think it's a good story to illustrate how powerful kind words or actions can be.. and u have done it to me today..

when i lose something, i will feel upset and cry and i would be ok after a while..
if i lose you, i will feel upset and cry and i would never be ok again..

i can't lose u.. i need u.. i love u..
you are my everything..
thank you for loving me..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm
*blissfully happy*

i love to work

2007-09-11T03:21:00.000+08:00

LIKE REAL!!! Grrrrrr..

e-learning week is over.. i think i play too much during the e-learning week, happily and naively thinking that it was school holidays.. *sigh* workload has already started piling on top of me and i'm feeling a bit suffocating now.. *sigh* *sigh* so many assignments, so many projects, so many this and that.. psle is coming.. i worry for px and worry for ww.. hdb is like a loanshark, keep arranging appointments to make us pay $.. tuition fee loan is like a vacuum cleaner, sucking dry my $.. sep loan is waiting to prey onto me too.. grrrrrr.. why $ doesn't fall from the sky?!? i think i'm a lousy person right now.. poor and dumm.. i think i might not end up in the US afterall.. what a broken promise to dar & eley.. grrrrrr.. i feel like s**t! boo.. time management, money management, stress management!!! grrrrrr.. =(

if i have to work in my dream too, i think i will go crazy.. grrrrrr..
if i can hug u to sleep everyday, i think i will be very happy.. heeeeee..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

我一点也不温和

2007-09-09T01:50:00.000+08:00

我一点也不温和 ..
我很凶很凶 ..
你怕吗 ?
你会爱我吗 ?
你会疼我吗 ?

慧鑫

three times your salary

2007-09-08T02:27:00.000+08:00

will you buy your gf a ring that is 3x your salary?
do you want to receive a ring that is 3x your bf's salary?

i think it's crazy.. but juz another penny worth of thoughts..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

thank u for remembering

2007-09-02T11:31:00.000+08:00

thank u dearest friends for remembering..
waimun
ying (& rene)
siewlee
wendy
yingli
fang [thank u girl for the very pretty bag! hee..]
june
yujie
yao
darren
lit

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

Happy Teachers' Day!

2007-09-01T23:48:00.001+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day to Mrs Noordin, Mrs Ng, all other teachers i know and all students teachers like me.. =)

when we were back at our jc yesterday, the teachers were very happy.. and..

Mrs Ng said, "Oh, I remember there are five guys who will always sit in row behind.. Sit must sit together, move also move together.. I call them the 5 musketeers! *looking at the names on the box of Ferrero Rocher* Hmmm, alvin, daniel tong, shing hym, bernard.. and who is the last one? *think really hard, scan the names really hard, june & i exchange glances and whisper "darren"* aiya, darren la!"

haha.. that was funny.. and while mrs noordin could remember every single one of us, mrs ng could only vaguely recall a few.. oh well.. i used to be very afraid of mrs ng, because she was very fierce.. but there was once during my ed psy class, i was asked to recall a teacher who gave me a bad experience and a teacher who had a positive influence on my life.. while i can remember many nice incidences, i could not remember any bad ones.. so, the one i shared was..

"When I was in JC, I did not do well in Biology as I had when I was in secondary school.. Keep getting 'D's and 'E's does not help me at all especially because I want to do Medicine in university.. Then this teacher came to class one day and asked us to do a reflection on why we are not doing well in Biology.. I wrote about all my disappointment and fear but when the reflection slip came back to me, it was full of encouragement and confidence in me from her.. I guess this is one of the reasons why I score an 'A' in the end and now, I am a Life Science graduate and Biology teacher-to-be.."

"You must take good care of her. She is one of my best students."

"Mrs Ng, the fan is not working. We feel very hot!"

"心静自然凉 ..."

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

if the rock drop out..

2007-08-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

don't be dumm..
if the rock drop out..
i will buy u a new one.. =)

luv,
ms ang dumm dumms dumm dumm

bridge to terabithia

2007-08-27T02:07:00.000+08:00

"... look really hard and keep your eyes wide open ..."

seize every opportunity to be with your loved ones..
cherish every moment with them..
for you never know when the chance will cease to exist..
and don't forget to say,
"i love u".

i love u.

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

i like the autonomy

2007-08-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

for the past few weeks, i felt tied down.. not that i do not like the idea, but i guess it's a new responsibility and it has kinda overwhelmed me for a while.. but mw has been really sweet and i think this new phase has kinda brought us closer to each other..

and today, he makes me really happy.. when we chit-chatted over tea, i was reminded of the autonomy he gave me to do whatever i want.. he said nz or not, i can go ny as long as i don't touch the WS.. hee.. *happy* thank you for making my day! when i'm happy at the start of the day, i will be happy for the rest of the day.. and because you made me happy, i think happy, i am happy.. happiness is a cascade of events (so is sadness/anger, thus, be careful with your emotions!)

actually, i wanted to go ny badly because it was a promise i made to darren and i din really want to break it.. but previously, i kinda backed out cos of the mismatch of mw's leave and darren's holidays.. besides, mw doesn't wanna go ny again.. and the whole idea of ny was left behind with a almost-broken promise.. but i guess now, i can still go ny for a few days? juz scare that the few days spent at ny is not worth the $ because the air ticket will be expensive and comparatively, an expensive ticket for a few days of holidays is certainly not worth it.. scully, spending 5 days in ny is the same price as spending 25 days in europe! haha.. but i guess, i will still give it a try and see if this holiday with eley and darren will work out.. and hopefully, mw and i will get to travel nz as well.. haiz.. $ is the determining factor.. grrr..

let's hope money fall from the sky.. =)

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

Today's Hotcakes: What do you teach?

2007-08-20T21:28:00.001+08:00

i want to be an interesting teacher but my job is not to entertain..
i will teach..
maybe influence..
and hopefully, inspire..

so, what do you teach?

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

i wish i were there

2007-08-19T11:06:00.000+08:00

i wish i were in taiwan.. somehow the next 3 days is going to seem longer than usual and i somewhat do not like the feeling.. boo..

i wish i were in taiwan.. why weren't i there now?

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

Today's Hotcakes: Erikson's theory of psychosocial development

2007-08-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

Knowing the psychosocial stage of a child's life is important in parenting..

Stage 1: Trust vs Mistrust (Birth to 1 yr)
For the infant, the sense of trust develops if he is predictably cared for when he cries and is warmly treated by her primary caregivers. If an infant, instead, is uncared for such as not being fed, diapered or comforted when necessary, this infant may develop a lifetime of mistrust for others.

Stage 2: Autonomy vs Shame & Doubt (1 yr to 3 yr)
Children want to do things on their own or act autonomously but there is a delicate interplay between freedom and restraint. Parents would want to let go of their child without considerations of safety issues. Interestingly, the child also has a conflicting need to be free but still holds on.
1. when you must impose restrictions, never humiliate a child physically or verbally
2. provide children with adequate opportunities to do things for themselves, even if it means the task becomes messier or takes more time than when an adult does it
3. set up discipline in which the same consequence is administered consistently each time a rule is broken

Stage 3: Initiative vs Guilt (4 yr to 5 yr)
Children began to ask questions about and experiment with the things around them. While such questioning and experimenting can be quite tiring for the adults in a child's life, they should be welcomed and encouraged as steps of essential growth. In situations which a child is discouraged from taking the initiative, the child may develop a sense of guilt regarding his natural tendency to explore and investigate.

As teacher, I guess I am towards identifying the pschosocial stages my students are in and weave my teaching in accordance to their needs..

Stage 4: Industry vs Inferiority (6 yr to 11 yr)
After trying, children now want to succeed and gain recognition for producing things. Without this sense of industry, children may feel that they are a failure at everything. Positive peer relationship is also important in a child's development. Peer rejection can hinder the child in his competence to make friends and develop social skills.

Stage 5: Identity vs Role Confusion (12 yr to 18 yr)
A significant part for personal identity concerns physical appearance. Next is sexuality identity. Adolescents constantly search for comfortable expressions of sexuality through friendship and dating. They also tries to find or clarify their own personalities, sometimes, through imitation. Questions like "who am I" and "who will I become" repeatedly overwhelm the adolescent. Some teens may approach choice of occupation from a short-term perspectives and it is important to steer them to go beyond their secondary school education to ensure that they explore a wider range of options.

Perhaps, I have to reflect upon the psychosocial stage I am in as well.. And if there is a fellow teacher who is acting weirdly, I can try to gauge which horrible stage he is in and laugh at him? haha.. just kidding..

Stage 6: Intimacy vs Isolation (18 yr to 35 yr)
The development of a true and intimate relationship enables an individual to care for others without losing their self-identity. Those who never experience this intimacy may develop a sense of isolation and tend to avoid relationship with others and make commitments. Marriage or non-marriage can affect teaching.

I guess I will never reach the next stage so soon.. But with so many old people at home, this may be useful as a guide..

Stage 7: Generativity vs Stagnation (35 yr to 65)
If the middle-aged is psychologically healthy, he will be focused on the care and well-being of the next generation without being overly self-concerned. If the sense of creativity or productivity is not present, the individual may experience stagnation and become overly self-preoccupied.

Stage 8: Integrity vs Despair (over 65 yr)
Individuals who have managed to adapt to the triumphs and tragedies of life are able to review their lives with a sense of satisfaction and acceptance. Others may be absorbed with despairing over missed opportunities, age or failure.

Today's Hotcakes is adapted from "Educational Psychology" by Tan et. al.

Love,
ms ang dumm dumm

what happens when u think too much

2007-08-12T00:46:00.001+08:00

the day i was late

2007-08-09T02:03:00.000+08:00

i woke up later today but left home 1h 10min before 8.30am..

5 mins to wait for 198, 196 or 147
10 mins bus ride
5 mins to wait for train @ CW
20 mins train to boon lay
total of about 10 mins of walking from home to bus-stop, bus-stop to mrt station, mrt station to bus berth
+ extra 10 mins if i miss a bus/train/both
- 10 mins if i catch a bus/train/both without waiting

so, by right, i should have at least 20 mins to take bus from BL to NILE.. but by left, i was late.. grrrrr.. =(

i reach boon lay at 8.10am.. was wondering why pple juz keep walking in a straight line.. there was a lot of space on their right.. maybe i was still half-asleep, but in any case, i decided to walk in thru that space to get to the bus berth.. half-way there, i stopped and i turned around and i was stunned and dunno what to do.. grrr..

that line of pple walking was the queue-of-ridiculously-many-pple moving to get onto 179!?! then i was hestitant whether to jump queue of go all the way back to the mrt.. and guess what i didn't jump queue.. and so i walked back as the line-of-ridiculously-many-pple continue to move and i didn't see an end or manage to be at the end for at least 1, 2 mins.. pple coming from the mrt or anywhere else (maybe drop from the sky) juz kept joining the queue.. it's ridiculous.. grrr..

i hate 8.30.. currently my fav no. is 12..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

p.s. you know what i think.. doing such dumm routine for at least 6 mths is gonna make me dummer.. ms ang dumm dumm dumm? grrrr..

blogger NOT found

2007-08-08T01:37:00.000+08:00

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She is dummdumm and really very DUMMDUMM, not just dumm.
If you are unable to load any pages, check your handphone for the blogger's no. and sms her instead.
If your handphone has mysteriously lost her contact or she is not replying you, pls wait.

We suspect she is currently very overwhelmed by the workload given by either MOLE or NILE. She had been found to be busy trying to INTEREST and ENGAGE her students last month. She might still be reflecting on what she could do to be a STUDENT-CENTRED teacher. In any case, we believe she is not SLACKING at NILE, just NOT HAVING too much LESSON.

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true love

2007-07-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

True Love

Vatican City, Italy

2007-05-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

Munich, Germany

2007-05-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

hold my hand

2007-05-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

hold my hand and bring me round the world..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

finally

2007-05-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

finally..
exams are over;
i'm graduating;
no more lectures & tutorials & study notes.

finally..
holidays are here;
i'm going on grad trip;
to enjoy myself in a whole new place.

finally..
freedom belongs to me;
i've more will to do what i want to do;
to make my life as fulfilling as possible.

finally..
life enters a new phase.

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

p/s: 48 hours to my flight to Germany, Italy & Austria. =)

the men just don't get it

2007-05-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

i'm bored.. and comics make me happy..

i'm not studying hard at all.
very little was taught;
nothing much to study.
eyes on my notes;
mind about europe;
heart with mw.

i want to play,
but not have one at home.

i want to sleep,
and have been sleeping all day.

i want to do,
everything except studying.

ms ang dumm dumm

i love travelling

2007-04-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

i'm pretty broke these days.. been saving thriftily for the europe trip.. how, let $ fall from the sky? hee.. or..

not a bad idea actually.. but my family doesn't own a car.. *sigh* oh well.. but i guess, as long as mw with me, i can easily endure anything in europe.. and i must admit, i'm pretty excited about this upcoming trip.. friends have been very sweet so far.. hee.. 俗语说：在家靠家人，在外靠朋友。 ying, eley, fang, jooch, yuncai, jiakai, 真的是谢谢你们了。

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

a dream so real

2007-04-27T20:47:00.000+08:00

tui'm still a bit traumatized by the dream i had last night.. i wouldn't call it a nightmare because it does not make me sweat and cry but i was very depressed in the dream.. and everything and everyone in the dream felt so real.. boo.. i was so glad to wake up this morning knowing that it was a dream.. as mw said, he won't let it happened to me..

finished watching an anime (Ouran High School Club) with mw today.. well, over a stretch of 3-4 days i think.. i like the humour, the storyline, the ending.. i'm glad i was entertained.. the main female character in the anime studied for a dream.. i'm quite sure i didn't studied because of a dream.. boo.. but does everyone has a dream?

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

心里的祝福

2007-04-25T23:02:00.001+08:00

正在听“街角的祝福”。
又是一首让我心感深处的一首歌。

好久好久没见面了。
如果再见面，
什么样的方式最好？
会说些什么？
会尴尬吗？

时间是不是已经把以前的愚蠢洗抹掉了呢？
还是有些回忆会永远在心里，擦也擦不掉？

有时候，这些回忆是种噩梦，让人心空。

慧鑫

学会了

2007-04-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

我喜欢家里的夜晚。
静静的，暗暗的，凉凉的。

有没有一首歌或音乐让你听了想起了某个人，某个事，某个回忆？

我刚刚听了“学会”。
想起了一些往事，感觉怪怪的。

草莓加巧克力会不会很甜美？
如果草莓的季节还没到，巧克力又是黑巧克力，酸酸的，苦苦的，感觉会不会很难过？

会。
一个人吃酸草莓加苦巧克力会很难过。

但。。。
酸草莓，
甜雪糕，
苦巧克力，
辣 wasabi，
会因为有你陪我吃，而变得很甜美。

慧鑫

恋爱

2007-04-24T03:11:00.001+08:00

想恋爱的人
期待，渴望，烦恼。

恋爱中的人
痴情，刺激，狂爱。

恋爱久的人
幸福，美满，知足。

你让我全全体会过。

慧鑫

if you are happy and you know it

2007-04-23T22:39:00.001+08:00

if you are happy and you know it,

will you..

clap your hands?
stamp your feet?
pull your ears?
say "hello"?

if not what will you do?

i'm happy today..
because you are happy..
and you share it with me..
i'm happy..
because you are happy..

if you are happy and you know it,
and you really want to show it,
if you are happy and you know it,
share it with me..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

biologists do it for a living

2007-04-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

i'm a biologist, not a chemist!

i'm so glad that the dumm report has been completed in two days with a week-long of idea-storming.. boo.. i hate chem bio..

i'm glad i'm a biologist, not a chemist!

biologists do a lot of things for a living.. coming up with dumm chemistry proposal is NOT one of them..

biologists got BETTER things to do..

hee.. for example..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

violin

2007-04-20T11:36:00.000+08:00

If we can't take the time out of our lives to stay a moment and listen to one of the best musicians on Earth play some of the best music ever written; if the surge of modern life so overpowers us that we are deaf and blind to something like that -- then what else are we missing?
-Welsh poet W.H. Davies-

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2007/04/04/AR2007040401721.html

the same old few

2007-04-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

i told eley that i felt very bored to keep playing the same few pieces again and again.. esp when i had only "mastered" 3.. boo..

so she gave me 3 pieces to practise by next week.. that crazy girl.. boo..

there is this one piece i want to play.. i better find the score soon.. hee..

Ich liebe Klavier..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

visualDNA

2007-04-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

you can't separate a breeze from the wind

2007-04-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

i remember something that Mitch Albom mentioned in his "The Five People You Meet in Heaven"..

"... there are no random acts ... we are all connected ... you can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind ..."

ya, it felt like whatever that happened was all connected.. i feel remorseful because i thought if i had done something else instead of what i did before the incident, i could have prevented what had happened..

newton's third law: "for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction"

i feel sad.. worried.. uncalm..
i hope whatever happens next, it's for the better..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm =(

my latest eye candy

2007-04-14T01:51:00.000+08:00

Klavier!

this is my latest eye candy.. been "eyeing" it for a few months already.. though not very good at it, i'm pretty happy to be able to enjoy it everytime i see it..

Klavierspielen ist sehr spaß!

Ich liebe Klavier.. liebe liebe liebe..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

happily ever after

2007-04-12T11:04:00.000+08:00

finally..
the day has come..
in a horrible mess, i must admit..
not so sadly, is the friendship..
old one that never fails..
new one that feels so true..

fyp is, but, a passing phase..
with coffee toxicity..
and sleepless night..
now that it's over..
i sleep like an angel..
happily ever after..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

p/s: fang & huiwen.. thank you..

disclaimer: this is not meant to be a poem or prose or whatsoever literature work.. it's juz me mumbling random words..

i love my dolphins

2007-04-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

i'm so upset with this.. why didn't anyone do something about this?

http://www.glumbert.com/media/dolphin

i love my dolphins.. please leave them alone..

=(
ms ang dumm dumm

Bitterschokolade

2007-04-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Leben ist gut

Ich bin dumm

Bitterschokolade freut mich

Ich bin glücklich

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

过了这个村，就不再有这个店了

2007-04-05T03:50:00.001+08:00

你是否也是这么想的呢?

小傻瓜

i'm my own april's fool

2007-04-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

when was the last time you played an april's fool joke on someone?

i can't quite remember.. but as far as i could recall, it should be when i was in secondary school and/or junior college.. and if you ask me why, i would probably say..

those were the only times when i was carefree enough to have an april's fool mood..

when was the last time i ran and had to complete it?

i guessed this had to be those 2.4km or compulsory running during PE lessons..

suddenly i remember those times i made a last dash for the finishing point..

i am at this point in time, trying to reach the finishing point.. i ran and fell and got up and limped and walked and tried to run again and.. .. .. but i didn't feel myself dashing.. i'm not sure how happy or relieved or satisfied i will be when i'm at that finishing point.. i just know that i'm not dashing and don't want to.. yet i want to reach there feeling accomplished.. so how? i had already tripped a few times and i'm getting more and more dehydrated..

i feel like a fool, and for today, an april's fool, in this dumm fyp race..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm