i miss you more and more..

remembering the good old days.. where stress is not a word in our dictionary.. where smilez are always on our faces.. where work is never one of our concerns.. now everyday is all about LP and slides.. life is kinda miserable.. i feel so fake in the environment that i am in.. i feel so afraid of the politics that is surrounding me.. i feel so lonely that i do not want to talk to anyone after a horrible class.. i really miss u.. i think only u can understand.. and i thank waimun for listening to me whine and gossip and complain about everything and anything tonight even though u don't feel very well.. girls, we must meet up more often.. really.. i hope sandy join me.. i not sure if u would like it.. cos i dunno whether i really like it.. but it would be nice if u are with me..


luv,
ms ang dumm dumm
and really dumm

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this is a ... post..

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it's less than 3 months to my wedding.. busy, yes, i am..
it's second week into practicum.. stressed, yes, i am..

i think there are really a lot of things that i have not done.. maybe i should really do them soon.. i'm not worried, i'm just anxious, i think.. i dunno.. an incident today juz make me realise once again how friends are so important but important friends are not around..

i don't think i'm a loner..
and i think i have enough friends..
i think they all care for me..
but i dunno why, sometimes,
they are just not there for me..

maybe i think too much,
maybe i'm too sensitive..
maybe i want too much,
maybe i don't dare to ask..
maybe i should just be positive..

yes, that's it.. i should just be positive.. i don't know what got into me tonight.. i think i have PMS..

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i wish i'm seeing wendy, sandy, melissa, shiqian in school everyday.. i wish i have better colleagues in school.. i'm not saying that the teachers are not nice.. they are nice.. but somehow, it's just so obvious that they are not the ones i want to spend my days with.. do u know how much time one can spend at the workplace.. it's SUPER long time.. let's see how a 24h day will work out in my possible life..

5 hours of sleep: (12.30am to 5.30am)
1 hour of wash-up: (5.30am to 6.30am)
1/2 hour of travel: (6.30am to 7.00am)
10 hours of work: (7.00am to 5.00pm) [assume i actually leave sch @ 5]
1/2 hour of travel: (5.00pm to 5.30pm)
3 hours of personal time: (5.30pm to 8.30pm)
4 hours of mw time: (8.30pm to 12.30am) [assume mw actually comes home @ 8.30]

see where the bulk of my time goes? can i have one of u at my workplace? or someone like u? boo..

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actually, i'm not tat gloomy, really.. mw & i went to buy lightings for the house today.. paid deposit for $755 worth of lamps and thats not all.. still got kitchen lights, two bedroom lights and one small light to buy.. but i'm happy with my retail therapy today.. a different kind of retail experience, but sure, it was good therapy.. yup..

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this is a ... post cos it's pretty random..

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luv,
ms ang dumm dumm