lust caution

Synopsis
*contain spoiler if u haven't watched it yet!*

伤害你的永远都是你最亲爱的

姨叫我体谅她。。 好啊，我体谅她咯。。

慧鑫

previously on 15 November, i wrote:
最近去爷爷家都有点不开心。。 =(

她总是喜欢用些讽刺的话来伤害人。。 对她来说， 她永远是对的， 别人总是错的。。 有时和她说话会让我很生气。。 其实她的这样那样已经好多年了， 只是以前被她骂的人都是她的女儿，所以我没感觉到刺。。 现在她对我的蛮不讲理，无理取闹， 吹毛求疵， 让我很心痛，很难过。。 但她还是这样。。

人很奇怪。。 总是喜欢伤害自己身边最亲的人。。 其实我好爱她。。 爱她比爱我妈妈还多。。 但她不知道，不了解，不体谅。。 喜欢用我对她的爱来伤我的心。。 有时我真的觉得她好坏， 好坏。。 因为她弄我心好痛，好痛。。

慧鑫

encouragement, persuasion, persecution

its' very frustrating when people don't do what u wish they would do.. whether it is obeying instructions or heeding advice, you just want people to listen to u.. this reminds me of a little something from my friend (& ex-bio teacher?):

some people need encouragement,
others need persuasion,
but when all fail, they need persecution.

nice huh?

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

4 freedom-deprived girls

what happens when 4 freedom-deprived girls become released from NILE?

• they eat (mainly sushi & japanese food)
• they talk non-stop about travelling (to bangkok)
  
• they go crazy about the thought of meeting boys (@ my wedding)
  
• they discuss about how to steal from neighbouring cubicle (in public toilets)
• they argue who is the most "auntie" among them (w_ _dy & m_ _ _ _sa are @ the top of the list=)

when 4 freedom-deprived girls come together, they have a whole lot of FUN! =)

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

i feel like a princess

the wedding date has been fixed but i haven't got the chance to tell many of my friends about it yet.. i have so many so many friends and so many of them are so important to me.. but i hardly meet up with them, either i did not have the time, or they are not free to meet me.. it's ironic how my colleagues, whom i know for less than half a year, know more about what has happened to me during the past six months than my dearest friends, whom some i have known for more than 6 years.. it always takes 2 hands to clap.. it must be all my fault.. =(

anyway, i think the more important a person is to you, the more this person will hurt you with his/her apathy over the most important issue of your life.. sometimes, i think i am very sensitive.. and i do not confront friends with issues like this.. i guess it's not nice.. maybe i am not a worthy enough friend to deserve care and concern.. who knows, the problem may lies with me..

to one of my dearest friends: thank you for telling me that it's ok, that i do not have to worry so much, that u will be happy for me.. u mean a lot to me and i'm glad that u didn't say any negative comments about my decision.. it's amazing how your comments still mean so much to me like in those jc days.. and i just want to thank you for making me feel good about myself and my decision.. ya..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

p.s. to my dear dear: thank you for making me feel like a princess by doing all the errands for me.. i believe for the next six months or so, we will be very busy very stressed but probably very happy too.. so pls pardon my erratic mood swings and unreasonable temper at times k? i love u dear.. 和你在一起快要四年了。。。 这段日子里有不少欢喜，也不少风雨。。。 但你都尽量让我当你最可爱的公主， 你最疼爱的宝贝， 你最亲爱的 dear dear。。。我感觉好幸福哦。。。 如果让我重新选择，我还是会要和你在一起。。。 你在我心里的地位是不会因为时间或地点而改变的。。。 dear dear 我好爱你，也会爱你一辈子。。。

慧鑫

1/4 of everything

i am quarter happy, quarter excited, quarter nervous and quarter worried.. i am very dumm.. thank you for telling me that it's ok, that i do not have to worry so much, that u will be happy for me.. u mean a lot to me and i'm glad that u didn't say any negative comments about my decision.. it's amazing how your comments still mean so much to me like in those jc days.. and i just want to thank you for making me feel good about myself and my decision.. ya.. hmmm.. juz another two cents worth.. boo..

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm

a thorn among the roses - minds cafe

dicary dicary dog
prince wannabe
quaker oat mai pian
intelligent honoured owl
cheesy squeak squeak ratatouille

which is the hardest to pronoun?

luv,
ms ang dumm dumm